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I'm in... love
the first words of a sentence that I've never said
use a thread to tie the parts of a broken heart that never mends
as I've bled I dread the whole process, watch it till it ends
If it ends to begin then when did I lose my innocence?
bend but never break, brake but still collide
I've seen the world spin out of control we all fall inside
then pretend like this is what we meant all along
we all seem to fall then claim this is where we belong
I'm back from the bottom with my heart on my sleeve
while my veins and arteries bleed with no way to impede
I see it rain from me, till it seems to fill up thee entire sea
try to part it, but my heart is, still a critical piece
an illiterate read, I cling to this language of love
freed from the ball and chain all the same living is not enough
would I rather be bound or free, accompanied or all alone
all the thrones and all the hopes of love something i do not know
hook:
broken hearts in the building right now
put your hands in the air if you're feeling down
I can't explain an emotion that I've never felt
can't tell the difference between the ocean and a dry well
I fell so hard that I got scrapes on my hands and knees
start to wonder if my heart is really even a part of me
hard to see when the dark encircles like a pack of wolves
odyssey but I can hear the howl echo through the woods
I can see the glint of the fangs as they come in to gore
some scars never heal, heart all ripped and torn
heart on my sleeve something i shoulda never worn
was this the plan set out for me before i was born?
crying out to God, like can you hear me through this storm
I gave my everything and it felt like nothing, I was never warned
that the cold in me could be used to turn away the warm
now I war in the core, fatalities all I ever score
they say if you die for true love you've been martyred
I never knew true love i'm still back where i started
They keep telling me i'm a victim of jealousy b
ut wont tell me why the hell no one is jealous of me
I broke from the jail just to be free
but freely express that I can't be me
so what you see isn't what you get
you understand but don't get it
what's the plan? I can't grip it
my fingers missing the conviction,
listen, this is what I'm trying to say
what I write down everyday
laconic, I'm never on display
but I've got to fight got to find a way
my mind is a weight, try to pull it towards the exit
look forward to when my past doesn't seem so misdirected
heard that to love is to let go, but I never let it
heard you say "I love you, say it back", but i never said it. (and i regret it)
broken hearts in the building right now may not know what love is but we gonna find out
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Please Don't Run Away
03:47
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The Minimum
03:15
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look, on the minimum I gotta be trendy and rich
the epitome of an entity that stands out of the mix
i have no niche except for that i have no niche
and I'll never be nixed a dream that wont end with a pinch
tricks are for kids and those who never grow up
I'm lost in forever pull the trigger watch me blow up
I am the one that you stare at when you stare at the mirror
I see you more clear than you can see me right here
you thought i was just a reflection but I'm so much more
i am you- how you perceive yourself from skin to the core
at the minimum i'm a symptom of vanity
maximum i'm the exact sum of whats wrong with humanity
the man in me is searching for someone that sings the same tune
we're all humming the same song from a different point of view
some worse than others but we're all sisters and brothers
choir sings for the lovers but the rhymes ring with the truth
And I can see your face on my cell phone
trace you back to the position that you fell from
how come the outcome is outright uncertainty
howd we get from here to there, now it's all a blur to me
the words we see written on this paper are smearing
from tears that drip down from eye's that aren't clearing
been living life looking through the grey of the fog
trying to fight your way back to where things went wrong
same songs play on everybody’s playlist
I see your trigger happy life has gotten aimless
blame it on boring nights and half caring friends
I blame it on empty dreams and an indifference to wins
when the wind isn't chilly life seems really pretty
when its gusty we feel rusty in this long lost city
hearing sirens as we're driven home from another loss
speeding through these streets with no concern for time lost
I've got one hand on the wheel and one eye on the speedometer
pedal to the floor while i ponder if it's my fault or hers
at the minimum you need more than blood in your veins
to be alive, when you realize we all want the same things
at some point we all feel the same pangs of pain
we all fiend for whats fake and love the mundane
at the minimum i wanted to be more than that
but now I'm speeding off into the night, no looking back
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Set Fire
03:56
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what a frustrating life
i see the glow of your face lit by a cell phone light
with a grimace on your lips and your eyes closed tight
like your exasperated, or maybe the screens just too bright
Silly girl who grew up and had trouble exiting the teens
cause life was more trouble than you were raised to believe
high school probably coulda been the prom queen
but you weren't a strait A student or on the cheerleading team
you were that awkward girl in the high school youth group
who's parents still made wear a 1 piece swimsuit
kinda rebellious but really nothing like your friends
who use school as an excuse to rule the weekends
you have too few drinks, and too much ambition
to capture the hearts of these young men in attendance
and yet for no reason you still want their attention
cell phone buzzes and life backs up into the distance
like
why's it all worthless
I can't find my purpose
Created as a work of art, no tattoos
but you got one anyway, so taboo
on your shoulder, it says "the world couldn't hold me"
an interesting thing to proclaim so boldly
you feel like the only girl at your college
who still is lost without a plan and unpolished
but compared to you girls would get demolished
you said you wouldn't get addicted, still you seek solace
plus you are close to overdosing on academic repetition
life is like a game that amounts to nothing, exhibition
but still you sit and listen wait for a chance to make a difference
the one race you want to lose, dread heading towards the finish
dread everything within like these feelings shouldn't feel
don't understand emotions or the need for something real
The world couldn't hold you, but you still want someone to try
afraid to look at the bright outside of your cellphone light
you only made one mistake, you chose not to hope
you want attention and want respect, but couldn't get both
life goes in directions that we could never know
live fast die young, live slow take time to grow
so when age starts showing early your disgusted
look back on life all the times that you've adjusted
beautiful girls never really lose their beauty
because when the outside fades inside their still pretty
and you're sitting thinking, what parts make sense
setting fire to the rain only burnt those stuck in the ditch
if there's a life outside of you, then there's reason to live
if we're given desires, there must be something to fulfill them
when nothing else ever did
when no one else ever did
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Cold Throne
04:43
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No One Laughs
03:51
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High school youth group, 2007
you started to wonder if there's such thing as heaven
made fun of when you put forth the question
so you debate it in your bed when the silence sets in
it can't be possible that there is such a place
who would let these hypocrites in through the gates
if jesus lets them in but doesn't let me
depsite all the good i've done but i didn't believe
then I'm fine with the opposite, check out what other option is
headed to where the hottest is, below where the bottom is
they say i can't see, need an optometrist
They search for the bad in me and don't point out the obvious
I can't tell if these people feel for me, or just act like it
they claim to be blessed but complain about how bad life is
that isn't right it's, just the opposite of what i want
I'm waiting for deliverance, what if it never comes?
everything changed when the lump in her chest
turns into a bald head she can't help but caress
questions that she asked no one could ever address
like letters never reached the one who could answer em best
romans 8:28 seemed more like a false incentive
when friends seem too short on time to visit the clinic
when facebook likes, and get well soon balloons
don't really quell the light storm inside that rises to a monsoon
hours of bible studies don't seem so beneficial
when her status is elevated from stable to critical
when parents are hysterical, families getting called in
and they start to form plans making funeral preparations
a hospital room starts to feel more like a life sentence
and every day you wonder if your life might end, if
the cancer spreads any farther they'll lose a wife and a daughter
left to wonder if there's such thing as a heavenly father
man, and it's such a struggle to understand it
hard not to panic when you look at life and don't think you'll manage
like jesus christ i really wish i had a better life
how come you never answer my questions how come this girl isn't my wife
how come i have to work for money just to spend it right away
good things in life come but never seem stay
am I to good for God? am i safe without grace
I see people proclaim your name but never see change
So I feel more comfortable living in my mistakes
and never think beyond myself and the choices i've made
still I feel taken away, as the stars blink down at earth
laughing at me, laughing at God, claiming i still deserve worth
what's worse, the existence of God and evil
or the absence of God and still the existence of evil
I laughed at God and he wrapped me in his scarred marred arms
told me my flaws were not failures and I would come to no harm
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The Prodigal's Poem
04:34
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Beyond The Illusion
04:04
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23 years of ridiculous privileges
more money in my pocket then some Ugandan villages
am I beyond the illusion to see the premise of a nemesis
we got children killing children with no healing for their illnesses
we care more about feeling feelings than ever helping them
we want the cross to be close, so we keep it on our necklaces
recklessness necessities of living with no remedy
the sin in me is the sin in you that is simply inflicting me
till in infinity and beyond we still trying to feel that buzz
from the booze, to the blunts, to the pews in the front
with our hands raised high to the rafters of the church
But if I'm honest half the reason I'm at church is to network
why do I feel blessed on the days off and never when I work?
maybe I only feel blessed when I choose to and only worship when I'm hurt
do I use God as crutch to get me past a day full of nerves
then have the nerve to turn my back to where his name is never heard
carry on my wayward son, they'll be peace when you are done
lay your weary head to rest, don't cry any more
no more sore backs with open wounds
been to hell in back got all the burn marks to prove
that hell is really hotter than the core of the sun
is the son really coming back before the earths time is done
are we really done confessin' when we never learn the lessons
we just go to impress them then oppress when we're stressin to affect them
till they submit to reflection and label us as ridiculous
meticulous hypocrites who inflict them with false benefits
like lunatics to get them to approvin' with a God they've never seen
that's made ludicrous by who is this celebrities on a screen
and we obscenely judge them and yell at others to love them
while we secretly crushing on the same one's there lusting
and jealousy is a combustion that explodes when it's time
and suddenly we find ourselves on the opposite sideline like
beyond the illusion is the conclusion that we don't know what we're doing
either we're winning or losing or misconstruin' the congruence
watch the glue as it's used to fix the loose screws in the model
of the gospel as we push it down the throats of the hostile
Jesus ate dinner with the sinners, but he never sinned
most of us as christians desire to do the same work as him
Hungrie, but I recognize more than the hunger within
eat with sinners? I am the sinner, I am the one that is bent
I am not the one that was sent to redeem and refine
who took sin on his back and carried it up to be crucified
I may try to emulate he who is great
but I am not he, I am the fakest of fakes
what If i don't show mercy to others through all that they need?
he said what you do to the least of these you've done to me
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Can't Stay Here
03:08
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When all you start to see is shooting stars
you're spending way too much time at bars
in my gettaway car with a laptop and a guitar
speakers blown listening to kendrick lamar
good kid hanging with a girl thats mad pretty
from the bread state where it always stays mad windy
tornado alley and I gladly take you for a spin
I drown in your frown and I swim with your grin
let's do it again, life is an adventure
sometimes adventures can leave bruises and splinters
memories get washed away but I'll always remember
December nights that are way too hot to be winter
the listener can take that however they'd like
most men spend to much time trying to find a dime
most are dime's a dozen with nobody to love em
welcome to the world where your worth isn't up for discussion
we're all rushing for consumption, soon to be consumed
Everything's not about you you you
but the nights still got lights like the stars and the moon
so the night is like the day with all the things we could do
ever get that lost feeling when you're made to leave
If you only get what you want you forget what you need
my compulsions showed me what i need to be free
Never felt strong till I realized how I was weak
Never felt greater love than that of my savior
with life like a mist it disappears in a vapor
each moment will vanish got take time to savor
only set sail on my dreams with God as my anchor
dont want to go to sleep then dont want to awake
hate to live life so fast that it becomes too late
to visit every village on every continent on earth
to work in the dirt and exert all of my worth
I've seen more beautiful people on these global trips
then anywhere else that i've ever been
And I swear their smile take a crocadile out the nile
turn his hard scales soft make em act less wild
but the smile was directed at the face of child
who struggled his whole life to feel worthwhile
why sit here in denial with my hand gripping this glass
when life was given to me while others aren't given a chance
questions I have to ask, when the days turn to years
I don't have to go home but i can't stay here
probably have to call a taxi when live becomes taxing
and find some answers to the questions i've been asking
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11. |
Obsolete Sadness
04:13
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12. |
Adventure (Bonus Track)
04:16
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both of my grandma's played the piano
and my parents did too
but i'm not very good at the piano
and neither are you
it's the same key's we try to hit but miss the rhythms
same notes we try to practice till we lose interest
most of the time music inspires something regal
but we aren't working a harmony or reading from a hymnal
it was amazing grace, how sweet the sound
I can't fail to say how often that i hear it now
I reminisces of how i caught a glimpse through a telescope
Of a girl I'd never known, looks like an adventure though
everything so foreign, switch up the language
they say lost love is the result of all anguish
I haven't lost much love so I don't know what pain is
I give up to easy, girl, I never been blameless
but, bet i never give up on you
if you think you ain't worth it know that's too untrue
I fell for you so dangerous,
like jumping out a plane with a parachute
james bond baby, without the casino still feeling royal
if the skyfalls like i fall hope we both land right beside you
your inside all my dreams just like inception,
talking life is like a movie but we aren't watching netflix
I could binge watch this sunset in till there's no suns left
and your silhouette against the set has me losing my breath
It's an adventure
whenever i'm with ya
adv
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you and me
love stories are fictions and mostly non existent
most of these gold rings can be slipped off in an instant
but harry didn't give Elaine a ring in a box
he said i'll spend all my time with you, gave her a watch
and Vern loved Myrna , knew that she was his girl
so they got engaged right there in the hospital
Faith has no limits, he'll tell you if you ask him that
legs may lose their strength but love cannot be handicapped
and that's real love, complete and whole
marriage between bride and groom that'll never be annulled
I don't know if that's something we'll ever achieve
but i'm willing to take my chances if it's you and me
life could be an excellent escapade
they smile through their fangs like we're wading in the everglades
they move on from girl to guy, switch it up every other night
but when I look at you it's like, why would i ever want that life
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